This morning I started to feel the fear creeping in as it came to me that this was all too real. I guess my mind is still trying to cope with my diagnosis and I tend to see myself from a third person point of view when people talk about my cancer. By 11h00 am I felt terrified but it eventually went away by early afternoon.
Today was "Orientation day" which consisted of a short movie about Chemotherapy and a general tour of the facilities, although I'd already read quite a bit about Chemo I did learn new things. I got weighted and measured and saw people receiving their dose either sitting in a recliner or lying down in bed. It had a very surreal feel to it.
I heard all about the possible side effects but I think that no matter how much info you read nothing can really prepare you as it all depends on not only drugs used but also dosage and cycles etc... I tend to expect the worse and hope for the best but is what I think to be the worse going to be anywhere as bad as the real thing ?
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After a long wait for a diagnosis, it's all happening very fast, all of a sudden. I imagine it's hard to get into gear for the new pace.
Bea
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